Monday, January 16, 2012

Ett skimmer av då

Jag fyller alltid år på sommaren. Alltid den tjugotredje juli.
Man kan ta tillbaka saker när man blir äldre, och tvärtom.
Allt man fick då.
Allt man saknar nu, och tvärtom.

Jag minns när min bror skjutsade mej på cykeln, neråt över havet, korna och förbi tennisbanan och uppåt och bort mot bondgårdarna och fotbollsplanen som var nergången redan då, maskrosor.
Jag tror att jag fyllde elva och det var första gången som Ulla och Vidar kom för att hälsa på i Påarp, nära Laxvik och Trönninge, ganska nära Halmstad i Halland.
Jag fick ett nät eller en håv som Vidar gjort, med femkronor i.
Jag tror att kiosken hade lagt ner men att affären fanns kvar.
Vidar var min lillasysters egendom. Kanske var han hennes extramorfar. Hon har/hade inget minne av sin egen morfar. Hon och Vidar åkte båt tillsammans, fiskade, åkte till Ven och Köpenhamn.

Man kan ta tillbaka det man aldrig fick.
Jag skrev en bok för sådär tio år senare, den hade drag av verkligheten. Jag stal delar av Vidar till den boken. Kallade honom Bror och han var min.
Jag har aldrig riktigt kunnat skriva om min morfar, det är ett skimmer över honom, ett skimmer av godhet och människor kan inte bara vara goda, eller utan problem. Jag kan inte skriva en person som bygger på min morfar, för jag kan inte beskriva honom som annat en ikoniskt.

13 comments:

GTA Vending Machine Services,Vending Machine services Canada said...

CAN Vending Solutions puts tremendous emphasis on customer service as we put our customers first. At CAN Vending, we understand that our success will come from the satisfaction of our customers and their staff/members. At CAN Vending, we will make recommendations to our customers about the best drinks and snacks.

sports equipments said...

The post is very informative. It is a pleasure reading it. I have also bookmarked you for checking out new posts.

Security Guards Toronto said...

Interforce International offers Security Guards, Guard Patrol Services, Security Officers, Security Guard Officer Service and much more!

vet Mississauga,veterinarian Toronto said...

It is a pleasure going through your post. I have bookmarked you to check out new stuff from your side.

air conditioner repair katy said...

5Star AC Filter is full service air-conditioning & heating company serving Katy & greater Houston area. We are all about air – cool air, warm air, clean air & high efficiency air conditioning at our lowest possible cost. With our certified expert technicians, your satisfaction guaranteed.

Air conditioner installation milton said...

There are many heating and air conditioning systems to choose from today. By contacting Apple wood you have access to an in-depth knowledge of heating and air conditioning; and experience to help you decide on the system that best fits your specific needs.

Tutoring gta said...

We are truthfully a unique knowledge experience! If you are not acquainted with our company and your first contact with us is online we would be pleased to hear from you!

new stucco installation toronto said...

PRO-DNA CONTRACTING uses enviromentally friendly products. projects will start and finish on time, projects will be conducted in a clean and neat work enviroment; we perform every project to the highest level of quality preserving, customers affordability.

scrap dealer said...

Scrap Dealer Delhi is a leader in the trading of ferrous and non-ferrous metals. We pride ourselves on our customer service and place great importance on finding the right solution for customer.

Mississauga Insulation said...

Four Seasons Insulation provides only the best insulation products and its service territory includes Toronto the Greater Toronto Area and Peterborough and Kawarthas. Our highly trained and courteous installation experts will complete your work on time, on budget and with minimal interruption to your home or business. Four Seasons Insulation has better insulating properties than other common home and industrial insulating materials.

scrap dealer said...

After the partition of India and Pakistan Scrap dealer Delhi's family came to India and they had no source of livelihood
so they started with a very small scale business of buying and selling the recycled junk.

Hand block said...

We provide Hand block printed Indian long kurtas and kurtis. Our clothes are traditional at the same time contemporary.

Massage tilburg said...

Ons Yoga Studio bevindt zich in het Centrum van Tilburg waar we traditionele indiaase Yoga lessen en Meditatie cursussen geven. De Yoga les is physiek inspannend en de Hatha Yoga Asana oefeningen vragen om een intense geestelijke activiteit.